August 30, 2025

A meandering of thoughts, positions, and warnings


A lot has happened this year. Some good, some bad. Some unexpected.
Of course, the worst for me was the death of my mother. Not sudden, but it was a terrible loss regardless. I miss her greatly. But I had missed her for a few years before she passed. She had alzheimers, so she sort of left us a while ago. The mother I grew up with disappeared in a fog of confusion and erased memories. The first time she forgot to call me on my birthday, I knew things had changed forever. A couple years later, when she asked me who I was, I knew my mother was gone. So, this was a slow roll toward the end. Do not mistake me. I know she is in a far better place spiritually. She is on her way to God. That gives me some comfort. But it's not the same as having your mother in the world with you.
At her funeral, I discovered two of my favorite cousins had passed on, and no one bothered to inform me. I am still sore over that. I also discovered an old gaming friend, Kirk, had passed away a few years earlier.
A couple months ago, my younger cousin Brent died unexpectedly. That hurt. I had not seen him in many years, but we were close in our youth and that bond was still there. He had a hard life. He deserved better than he ended with.
And that news came on the heels of me finding out my best friend from High School had died in the winter of early 2024. His name was Craig. That poor guy had a difficult life. Childhood diabetes, daily insulin shots, strict diet, and even then it wasn't always enough. He spent a fair amount of time in the hospital over it. By the time he was 40 or so, he was on social security disability because he began having seizures randomly, his eyesight began to fail, and his legs started to atrophy. His marriage began to suffer, as well. His ending was very sad, from what I read in his obit. Basically, he passed away in a nursing home. Alone.
I'm still working through that one. I'm angry, to say the least. But at least he, too, had become Christian in his final years. Hopefully I will see him again one day.
So yeah... it's been a rough first half of the year. I have been thinking of my youth, and the family and friends from that life. Some of whom are no longer here, others have drifted off into another life of which I have not been part of for a long time. Some I have purposely discarded due to betrayal. I do miss some of them, but that was another life.
And then there have been changes and events which have been life-altering. The birth of my last child nine years ago. My newest granddaughter a year ago. My youngest son's first Reconciliation & Communion. My next youngest son's new career in intelligence in the Army and getting stationed in Europe. My youngest daughter marrying into a fine Lakota family. My other daughter engaged to be wed next year. My third son becoming a Marine and getting married. My second son finally getting his life together and driving longhaul truck in a steady career he likes and is helping him finally get out of his financial hole. My brush with death six years ago. My first ever vacation, with my wife, to a beautiful island in the West Indies. Our tenth wedding anniversary this year. My conversion to Catholicism, Rome approving my annulments, and my Confirmation into the Roman Catholic Church & first Eucharist on Easter Vigil.
I am thankful, as well as grateful to everyone in the Church who helped make it happen. Overcoming mistakes of the past is always the first step toward seeing your future and working towards it.



On that note, please pray for the families who have had their futures taken away or permanently stained because of the vile, evil acts of the demonically possessed and mentally unhinged. Pray for the victims, and their families, of the most recent tragedy in the Catholic School attack in that deep blue wasteland we know as the Twin Cities. These malevolent events, whether enacted by troons, jihadies, demsocs, or marxist pyschos, are the worst sort of betrayal. Especially in situations like this last one, where grade school children had just started their weekly Mass (prayer) in the school's chapel. This one hits home for me. My youngest child goes to Mass every week, at his Catholic School's chapel. He is in grade school. We are under the ArchDiocese of St Paul, same as the school just attacked in Minneapolis. As a Catholic parent in the same scholastic situation, this hits hard. I feel the loss of those children every time I look at mine.

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti.
Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee,
blessed are thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Our Father, who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be thy name;
thy kingdom come; thy will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread;
and forgive us our trespasses; as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti.
Amen.


But it also angers me. This should never have happened. And that retard of a mayor in Minneapolis rushed to lay blame on our second amendment and those on the rightside of the political spectrum. How absolutely shallow, insensitive, self-absorbed, and moronic. He should have been working to console the families and community. Working to help find out who the perp was and how he came to be this evil.
Instead, that dolt of a mayor chose the route of political flamewars and deception. I have come to expect nothing better from the Left, to be honest. Twits like him are why I eventually got redpilled and walked away from the Left, and their insane, inane, inept, and ignorant perspectives. In the 90s, I just went with the flow. I agreed with my circle of friends because I figured surely they, as a group, must know better than me. In the 2000s, I went along with them because of those I had been married to and what I was being fed in college.
It wasn't until I had been out of academia for a time, and began to do my own research, outside of the echo chambers of "Liberal" Arts, that I realized how corrupt and indoctrinating universities (and public schools, K-12) were. As I looked back on my time at IU, I realized how subtle it was. Writing a paper? Be sure it is relevant not just to the subject matter, but to the professor's approved list of perspectives. Using sources? Be sure you only use approved and credible sources from the approved list (which only ever included left media, magazines, authors, etc.). I recall asking once, as I looked over the approved list for news sources to use for a paper, why FOX news was not approved. I was told that they were not a serious news organization and tended to leave out important info. I realized later that what he meant was they offered a different perspective than the approved opinions of the Left. The deeper I dove into researching this, I came to discover that the bulk of "approved and credible" sources were all hard Left (democrat, marxist, socialist, communist, progressive, modernist, postmodernist, nihilist, atheist, darwinistic, etc.). The Atlantic, Huffington Post, NPR, PBS, CNN, MSNBC, Daily Beast, Wire, Slate, Mother Jones, Washington Post, NY Times, Guardian, Telegraph, Independent, BBC, CBC, CBS, ABC, NBC... all of them. This became so apparent during the kung flu nonsense, that even clueless folks began to see it. Remember the scene from (again) Minneapolis with the token minority field reporter standing in front of a neighborhood being razed to the ground and him blathering about how the "protests" were "mostly peaceful"?

And then we saw just how vile, lying, and corrupt the Left and many on the Right (RINOs) really were, over the next few years. Forcing an untested, unproven, and dangerous experimental shot on innocent civilians and military. The theft of our tax money to prop up violent protests by cowards in masks, entitled and miseducated minorities angry over events that happened two centuries prior, push an agenda for aberrant and mentally ill deviants and then try to push it on our young, and then we finally discover that all of the bs purported against the 45th president was made up by his opposing candidate, outgoing executive branch, their political party, our own intel community with the help of our federal law enforcement and the UK's intel agencies. And WE paid for all that nonsense. How about the hundreds of billions of dollars that they poured into the unwinnable war Ukraine was in - money of which most is still unaccounted for but yet the Left pushed hard to keep pouring money into it. Every person in Congress and the WH who was proUkraine needs to be audited and explain how their financial portfolios increased by 1000s of percents. Then there is the corruption within the UN, mainly directed at jokes like China, Pakistan, Sudan, Algeria, Afghanistan, Somalia, and Iran being put on their Security and Human Rights Councils. Then we have the hobby organizations of the uber-rich, like the W.E.F. and financial fronts such as Vanguard, Blackrock, and State Street interfering with the wealth and the Rights of the world, forcing up property values, working to eliminate the middle class in order to reestablish the former peasant/aristocrat system most of the uber-rich families enjoyed for several centuries before America gave them the middle finger and became an independent nation.


*Sigh...
Sorry for the rants and the not-so-nice names. Even though they are well-deserved.
If you really want to understand what has been happening politically and financially, for the last century, start with a couple books. A two-volume set by Whitney Webb, titled "One Nation Under Blackmail"
There are many other sources out there, now. The list grows daily, it seems. But Whitney is one of the best places to start.

But, all that being said, the deepest roots of all this wickedness and deception thrown at us goes back millennia. Eons. It is supernatural. It is the purest evil. It is older than almost anything else effecting change on this world - but only ill change, unholy change. And all of these things, all these events throughout time, occurring now, yet to come... they all spawn from a single source of darkness that has prowled through time, seeking the ruin of all humans. This is what I eventually came to realize, to witness, to discern. Most of us (humans) have been duped into a lulled sense of blasé, or false contentment, or misconception of the true fight we should be involved in. As prophecy states, many will fall away. Many will be misled before the end. The gate is narrow. Most will not give up their material things, their idols of modernity, their notions of false virtues, or their outright depravity and evil. Most will be on the wrong side of the spiritual warfare because they are too worried about losing their freedom of lust, gluttony, hate, anger, ignorance, apathy...


This year, I chose the only winning side. Personally, I have a long way to go, as I am a sinner, like every once else. And I feel more attacked today than ever before. That goes with the territory. The adversary hates to lose anyone he has snagged.
I am stating all of this so that you know where I stand and to give you something to think on.
For many years, we have been lied to by those we considered virtuous, ethical, intellectual, scientific, philosophic, and beyond reproach. In universities, in schools, in govt, in business, in the medical and pharma fields, even in many "churches" (looking at you, protestants). Even my own Church has been suffering a quiet schism since 1962. When you count out all the entities who you cannot trust to be honest or good, the list of trustworthy becomes radically small. I can tell you all of those whom I think should be trusted, but many of you really need to deep dive into this research and see for yourselves.
And most of all, I pray my eldest daughter does this for herself. She has not spoken to me in 12 years. Sadly, I helped walk her down the wrong information path very long ago. I misled as I was misled. Then her attendance of the same university as me further cemented that indoctrination.
Only she can correct her course, now. All I can do is give her buoys by which she might find her way.


*Also, public service announcement - for those of you who still game, abandon the woke trash that is D&D 5e and beyond.
Play Shadowdark. Play Baptism of Fire. Play Traveller. Play Cthulhu (older versions). Play Battletech (FASA version, not CGL), and play old school D&D. Don't give time or attention to all this garbage that WotC and others are putting out. Get back to the roots of the hobby. That's where the fun and adventure still lives.
For those who know me, I still have the same email addy I had 15 years ago.